Monday, August 30, 2010

Socially Stupid

How do you fix social stupidity?  I am so bad in social situations that I will sometimes sit in a corner and observe people without saying anything for hours.  And if that's not sad enough, I am a lot better now than I was in High School.

I've been trying to force myself to go out more.  I have even done karaoke in an attempt to repair my introvertedness.  Now I am starting to wonder if this hasn't taken me from one version of debilitating social awkwardness into another.

There are a group of people from my old Kermit/Wink school days meeting in Fort Worth this weekend (it's a 3 day weekend).  I didn't enjoy my school days.  I had a few really good friends (who probably won't be there) and a few people I enjoyed spending time with (who might be there) so what do I do? 

I was a social basket case in junior high and high school and the thought of seeing some of those people again may cause me to jump back in my waste basket of unfounded silence.  On the other hand, it might be good for me.  You're supposed to do something every day that scares you.

Do I sign up and let a few select people know I'll be participating?  Do I totally go crazy reverse logic and just let everyone know I'll be there?  Do I remain completely mute on the subject and perhaps turn up, check out the situation from afar and see if there is anyone there I would like to talk to?  Do I collect some of my local buddies to go out drinking with me so that I'm not sitting at a bar by myself watching people I haven't seen in 20 years from a safe distance?

Or I could just go to downtown Dallas and do karaoke on the rooftop of Gators... Last time it was fun.

2 comments:

  1. So........what did you end up doing? :-)

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